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Tuesday, August 25, 2009

OH MY GOODNESS .... OH MY GOODNESS

Ok ... well ... I'm being completely irrational right now.

I have been following a baby, called Tina, on the Chinese Starfish Cleft Blog since February.
The first moment I saw her picture ... I had this overwhelming sense that she was destined to be mine.

Now ... I know that China does not allow you to Pre-identify a child. So in all reality ... without a miracle ... this child will not be mine.

Still yet .. this is the child that convinced me to ask for a special needs child in my last homestudy update.

Even though I know that in all reality, "Tina" will most likely not be my child, I feel incredibly drawn to her...in a way I've never been drawn to another child before.
So, I follow the blog. I pray that she is blessed with good health, and joined with her forever family soon.

She was a newborn when I first saw her pictures. She is about 6 months old now.

On the blog today, the lady who runs the foster home said that she would scheduled for surgery in November .. with Dr Buckmiller. Dr. Buckmiller is a ENT/Cleft repair specialist at Arkansas Children's Hospital. This is the doctor my child will see on a regular basis IF I accept the referral of a cleft lip/palate baby.

WOW. Could this be an Arkansas connection ????

I KNOW .... I KNOW .... I KNOW .... this is so incredibly ridiculous for me to think about ... but who knows what God has in store !!!!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Getting older STINKS !!!!

Everyone says that falling apart starts at 40. I'm here to tell you ... that ain't so !!!

I'm only 36. My hips hurt. My knees are creaky. My ankles are sore. I have phlebitis in both legs. I've had a blood clot. My hair is turning grey. So ... it doesn't sound like I have much to look forward too.

WRONG !!!! Life is so good. Although I have creaky knees, and aches and pains...I am happy.
I have wonderful friends. I have the hugs and kisses and smiles of the little kids around me.
I have a wonderful family. My niece is a true joy ... and my nephew makes me laugh. My brother in law is more like a brother. My parents have been married 45 years this year. They have set a great example for me. I'm so lucky.

WHAT DO I HAVE TO LOOK FORWARD TO ???? My little one. Although I've been waiting 3 years ... everytime I see one of my little buddies ... I'm reminded why I am waiting patiently.
I can't wait to be a mom.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

3 years today


Well ... 3 years ago today, my dossier was logged in at the CCAA .. it was official .. I'm pregnant (on paper anyway).


At the time of my Log In ... the wait for referral was 10-12 months. I remember marking the monthly anniversary dates on my calendar and thinking 2 years ... I won't have to wait that long.

Here I am 3 years later...still waiting.


For anyone out there who is still waiting ... I say hang on. Get involved with your local FCC group. Learn all you can about China. Take time for yourself ... pamper yourself ... travel to those places you want to visit. Treasure your time alone .. it'll soon change. Sleep late. Soak in a relaxing bath.


I've learned that 1 smile from a little angel .. like the one pictured above ... reminds me the wait is worth it all !!! I'm ready to have my beautiful little girl in my arms ... but she's just not ready for me yet. God is creating her with me in mind...and I must be patient. When she is placed in my arms, I'll know that God is the red thread that connected the two of us together, and that read thread ... can NEVER be broken.

Thursday, August 13, 2009


Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Pre-DVT Diagnosis leg photos

These are some pictures I took of my right leg ... about 4 days before DVT (blood clot) was diagnosed. Yes this is the knot on my let that was treated as an erythematous nodule. SOME NODULE !!!!
The Knot on the upper part of the calf is actually where the blood
clot was located. No wonder I felt like if someone would
just poke me with a needle I'd pop !!
can we say ... SWOLLEN !!!!!
I knew it was bad ... but I don't think this registered !

newest photos of ME !!!!!








Thursday, August 6, 2009

Time Calculator

Rumor Queen had a neat website listed in her post tonite.

www.timeanddate.com


If you go to this site, and plug in 2 dates, it will calculate the number of days between the two.

EXAMPLE: My Log In Date for the adoption is 8-18-06

If I use 8-18-06 as the start date, and 8-6-09 as the end date ... I can see that I have been waiting:
1084 days =
2 years, 11 months, and 19 days =
93,657,600 seconds =
1,560,960 minutes =
26,016 hours =
154 weeks

If you use a start date of 3-22-06 ( the date where the CCAA got to in LID's in the last set of referrals) and an end date of 8-18-06 (my LID) ... you can see that CCAA needs to refer:

149 days =
4 months, 27 days =
12,873,600 seconds =
214,560 minutes =
3576 hours =
21 weeks


I think I'll make a new countdown ticker.

I know ... this is useless information ... BUT I think it is neat !!!!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Lap-Band Update

I am excited to report that since April 27, 2009, I have lost 36 pounds.
Over 15 weeks .. that is an average of 2.4 pounds per week ... a very healthy average !!!!

I had someone ask this week if I have had any regrets with the procedure. The answer is NO ... none whatsoever.

I will admit that the last adjustment I had has been a challenge. What is an adjustment ??? Well, when you have surgery and the band is put in place, it is empty. Over the first 4-6 weeks, the stomach opening is restricted due to inflammation. As the inflammation disappears, the opening seems to be larger, so that more food can pass, impeding weight loss. After about 4 weeks, you can have a fill. You know it is time when it takes more food to keep you from being hungry, and you are not loosing weight.

I had my first fill in June. The doctor had me drink barium (YUCK) and sit in a C-Arm X-ray so that he could tell how restricted the opening was. With a needle about 4 inches long, he accessed my port, and injected 3.75 ml of fluid. That is the equivalent of 3/4 teaspoonful. All was well ... didn't have any problems. My weight loss did slow, since my activity was limited by the blood clot, swelling, and pain in my leg. When I could eat almost a regular size meal, I knew it was time for another fill.

I went on July 15 for my second fill. Doc added 1 teaspoonful of fluid to the band. Everyting seemed fine, until I tried to drink some slushy ... it wouldn't go down. Then I couldn't swallow anything very well. Whatever went down ... hit ... and bounced right back up. I kept spitting up this foamy looking spit. I went all day on Thursday thinking things would be better. It wn't.
During the night, I got choked on spit that wouldn't go down. I coughed and coughed .. which caused a nice gag reflex, and about 2 cups of foamy, frothy, junk came up. So .. on Friday, I called the doctor. Sure enough, I was too restricted.

On Friday morning, I headed back to the doctor's office. He performed the other type of adjustment ... he removed 1ml of saline from the band. One milliliter ... that is less than a quarter teaspoonful. I could swallow water ... I could swallow spit ... life was good again.

That was 2 weeks ago. It has been a rough 2 weeks. Today was the first day that I could keep semi-solid foods down. I'm currently living on soup, ice cream, popcicles, protein shakes, etc.
Today my meals consisted of 1 orange protein shake with strawberries, bananas, and pineapples, 1 cup of cheesy broccoli soup, about 1/4 cup of squash casserole ... eaten over an hour or so, a frozen coke, and 12-15 mini rice cakes over several hours. Not a HUGE amount of food by any means ... but I feel like I binged ... IT ALL STAYED DOWN.

Good news ... My pants are huge. I bought new shorts 4 weeks ago ... they are now so big that I have to safety pin the sides so they'll stay up. My shirts are getting very loose. I've worn 2 pairs of pants that I couldn't wear. I laugh and say I'm shopping in my own closet.

I need to get some pictures posted, but I can't seem to get it together enough to get any taken.

I have been cleared by my new internal medicine Doctor, and my surgeon, to be able to start water aerobics. I LOVE water workouts. I actually found a water proof I-pod case on e-bay. It works very well. I do Leslie Sansone's Walk Away the Pounds 2 mile walk ... IN THE WATER .
I actually worked out 3 times last week. I went today, but the pool was closed because of lightening.

Well .. that's all for now. I am gonna be looking good when I finally get a referral ... wonder when that will be ????