OH MY GOODNESS .... OH MY GOODNESS

Ok ... well ... I'm being completely irrational right now.

I have been following a baby, called Tina, on the Chinese Starfish Cleft Blog since February.
The first moment I saw her picture ... I had this overwhelming sense that she was destined to be mine.

Now ... I know that China does not allow you to Pre-identify a child. So in all reality ... without a miracle ... this child will not be mine.

Still yet .. this is the child that convinced me to ask for a special needs child in my last homestudy update.

Even though I know that in all reality, "Tina" will most likely not be my child, I feel incredibly drawn to her...in a way I've never been drawn to another child before.
So, I follow the blog. I pray that she is blessed with good health, and joined with her forever family soon.

She was a newborn when I first saw her pictures. She is about 6 months old now.

On the blog today, the lady who runs the foster home said that she would scheduled for surgery in November .. with Dr Buckmiller. Dr. Buckmiller is a ENT/Cleft repair specialist at Arkansas Children's Hospital. This is the doctor my child will see on a regular basis IF I accept the referral of a cleft lip/palate baby.

WOW. Could this be an Arkansas connection ????

I KNOW .... I KNOW .... I KNOW .... this is so incredibly ridiculous for me to think about ... but who knows what God has in store !!!!